Hello, beautiful soul.
I thank the Universe for bringing you here. It means that our souls need to meet at this point in our journey.
Are you ready to celebrate your gifts and ascend to your highest self? Let’s do it together.
The dark night of the soul
It’s not going to be easy. I, too, had my own episodes of “dark night of the soul”, and while they did not break me, they brought me to a place of helplessness, doubts, and fears.
The darkest night among them all, I began to think that I was “odd”. That I did not fit in. When I saw integrity breaches and called for accountability and reforms, I was described as a mere disruptor (in its negative context): that I was creating chaos. I was also described as “expecting utopia”, as if living a life of integrity is no longer the norm. That good men are not real anymore. That people who expect fairness, truth, honor, respect, and integrity are weirdos.
In the darkness, one can see the Light
Ironically, when they were calling me names, those were also the times that I felt I was at my most empowered. I did not want to be defeated by fear. While there were indeed moments of confusion and fear, in the end, I stood up for truth and integrity. That is who I am. I raised my voice (with a few “warriors” like me)–but, eventually, sadly, I became the only one left in the room. I ended up alone. Everyone decided the fight was not worth it.
It was probably one of the saddest moments in my life.
In a world where money (as attached to fear) is superior to values–even those you once considered as friends may eventually walk away. Some will even malign or bully you. At first, we will not understand it. We could feel like a victim. While we could indeed become victims of cruelty and injustice, it may took a while to realize that what happens can actually be a blessing in disguise.
Such experiences also help us recognize what is the meaning of putting boundaries. That kindness is not about saying yes all the time, sacrificing our own happiness, values, or worth. When we put boundaries, we also express our power and self-love, inspiring others to be more self-aware and courageous, too.
This path of courage means we are also ready to speak up. The wrongs must still be corrected. Justice must still be expected. We should create a society where every person is seen and heard. We could be that light in a sea of darkness. We could be the voice in a room of silence (and fear).
Living an honorable life; it’s always a personal choice
As we become the light, we begin to experience peace in knowing that we cannot impose our values on or control others. One’s awakening is not our business. We can do our best to inspire others but we cannot force anyone to live an honorable life. One will cheat if he wants to cheat. We can try to dissuade him from it but the final decision is entirely his.
But while we cannot impose our values on others, we also have a part in making this world a little bit better. I know that sounds like a cliche. But there is no point in living if we do not try to become instrument for someone’s awakening. We are given a voice and we are therefore expected to speak up. I read somewhere that if we are given a seat in the Board Room, we need to speak up for those who do not have it.
A non-discriminating and non-separate God
We are called to take a part in humanity’s ascension. That begins with embracing our humanity and divinity. There is a loving and non-discriminating God-goddess-divine who is our Spirit’s source. S/he is inside us (or better yet, we are inside him/her as s/he is inside us). I believe in the oneness and goodness of all creations. And in the intangible things that truly matter: love, compassion, hope, kindness, justice, and respect–all of which are possible in a society that still upholds integrity and authenticity.
And so, we continue to walk this path. Even if it is tough. Or lonely. Even if it means we will still be treated as outcasts, or worse, described as weirdos.
Choosing the path less travelled
It could be a lonely road. But the misjudgement is worth it if we know that we are able to help bring up children who will grow up knowing what is right or wrong and live up expecting the best from themselves.
We have great dreams for our society. We all want less children on the streets and more in schools. We want better leaders and politicians. Although many of us personally enjoy working/living abroad and embracing new cultures, we all want more jobs for our people here, not elsewhere. We want lesser traffic and cleaner air. We want lesser reliance on fossil fuels and more on renewable energies. And most likely, you also agree that we need lesser number of beauty contests but more competitions in the Math and Sciences.
The 3D prepares us for the 5D
We can all try to be a guru or an ascended master but we cannot escape our 3D existence. There are indeed bad leaders and governments. We must not condone them but we also cannot engage in unproductive blame game. Our time is precious. We can try planting more trees, minimizing consumption, and bringing up upright children. Let others choose their path–inciting people to rebellion, sowing hatred, or continuously barking up the wrong tree. Eventually, they will be on our side, too.
Where we are is where we could help
And so, let’s work together. There is a mission to be fulfilled here on Mother Earth, our beloved Gaia, as we journey through ascension. You have your own mission as I have mine. Even if our paths are not the same, we have the same accountabilities. Are you an educator? Then you are accountable to your students. You cannot teach them good behavior if you yourself are not proud of how you speak or behave.
In the same breathe, a part of my income comes from being an environmental and social development professional. I will not be credible in my profession if I will be the first one to throw plastic bottles away in our beaches.
We can choose a path that honors Gaia and this is the same path that brings us in union with Spirit and divine consciousness. Each will find his own path–it can be teaching, painting, singing, or healing. Our mission–which allows us to serve the collective–is not a separate act from our divine self. The one who serves in the physical body is just a small part of the same soul-being who lives in different timelines and multiverses. To be human is to be divine.
You are an infinite being. But you are also that beautiful person in the here and now. As I am here, too.
Let’s treasure the gift of life. The ability to be present. You are your own Queen or King. As I am.
Leadership requires courage
I would probably be your visionary-leader-nurturer type of person. I’m strict with work but “soft” inside, too. Nurturing people is important but when necessary, the practice of tough love is essential, too.
Please don’t expect that an spiritually evolving person is all about love and light only. That is always a misconception. Spirituality teaches us to be kind and respectful but it does not equate to taking b.s. from anyone. Journeying the spiritual path is about embracing who we truly are: light and darkness, yin and yang. Labeling actually gives me some discomfort. Spirituality should not be seen as a badge of honor or a label. [But we are humans still caught in the 3D and labeling is a form of convenience. Lol!]
And so, please allow yourself to embrace the whole package: your gifts, your failings, and your promises.
Allow yourself to embrace the person (and leader or follower) in you. I am likely 70% leader, 30% follower. I love working in teams but I think I’m happier (and more useful!) leading things. This is something that people misunderstand about leaders. They are not bossy. The word had actually been given a negative connotation. True leaders are open to suggestions, however, their minds had been programmed differently. Especially if time is critical, they are designed to act fast. They will conform and follow directions if it is for the common good. They respect regulations/authorities but they have confidence to speak up.
Being decisive is important if we’re trying to make a difference. Why wait for the floods when we can build the bridges now? Using our voice means also choosing our battles well–at the most opportune time.
Being the change that we want
We can come up with clear solutions rather than rant mindlessly. Yes, it looks like ranting if there is too much complaints–in the middle of a serious pandemic–without offering any concrete solution. We can disagree all we want–it’s our right–but also, there is an unwritten rule in mature discourses: avoiding hostility, ad hominem attack, insults, and name-calling.
This is something we can appreciate from great leaders. These gurus usually train their people to avoid going to them with problems. Their people are trained to analyze problems and develop and execute solutions. Leaders are busy. They don’t have time to get down on their knees and complain over problems. They prefer hearing the solutions.
I must confess though. I used to be a hard-core leftist activist, too. The type who never runs out of complaints against the establishment. Come hell or high water, I will always look for something to complain about. Back then, for me, the establishment is always incompetent.
I embrace that part of me in the past because it indeed taught me a lot in understanding poverty and social inequality. However, I realized later, true activism is anchored on genuine personal transformation. There is no escaping it. This is indeed true: if we want change to happen, we should let it begin in us. In you and me.
Celebrating art and our body’s natural ability to heal
And how do we transform ourselves? There is no fixed formula but a good step is living a full life. Live. Travel the world. Commune with nature. And the stars. Learn from mistakes. Forgive yourself and others. Heal. Experience love. Heartaches. Art.
And what is life without art? Don’t forget, you are a cocreator.
Let art, literature, culture, and languages fascinate you. I get excited in photography and painting. I’m learning calligraphy and French language. And soon–violin, too!
I enjoy traveling and had been blessed with the chances to live and work in Bangladesh and Cambodia. I am in awe of the beauty and mystery of this world, the works of talented artisans and authors, and heritage structures and temples.
I believe in energy healing and the body’s natural ability to heal. That is why I had trained in Pranic Healing, Reiki 1 (Usui System of Energy Healing), and Swedish massage therapy. I intuitively use crystals, plants/herbs, dance, and music during those rare times that hubby and I will have minor health issues.
TIP: Having sudden rashes? Drink green or black tea daily then use the leaves or tea bags as a compress over the affected parts. Do the compress at least twice a day (you can keep the leaves in the ref for the 2nd application but change the teabag/leaves daily). If all goes well and we have the same bodily response, your rashes will be gone (zero marks!) in less than a week.
One time, while traveling through a train in Japan, a co-delegate in a conference had an extreme stomach ache. He was like wanting to cry already. It was not yet near the next station so I intuitively placed my hand over his tummy and prayed. The next thing we knew, all the pains were gone. Just like magic.
Stepping into our own power
I don’t know what really happened but I knew there is a great and loving power within and that we can always tap into it if we needed healing. But I’m not your miracle worker.
Remember, YOU are YOUR own miracle worker. I can share recipes but you are the chef. You can add your own ingredients and spices, modify the “how to’s”, and adjust to taste. In this divine kitchen, everyone is an artist and you are free to create your own masterpiece: YOUR LIFE!
Time is precious, my beloved. Please don’t waste it about things that you can no longer or cannot yet change. Understand power dynamic and politics but don’t become too embroiled in politicking. Let our government leaders face God and their conscience. They are not the real enemies. We are our own enemies. The society will eventually fix itself if every one does his own fixing within himself first. We all need to be the change that we want.
Live in the NOW. Be present. Be mindful. Attain your highest potential.
I am saying this so you will remember. You are a powerful being; a co-creator. You are from the Divine Source.
All you need to do is wake up and step into your power.
Blessed be, beautiful soul. Namaste!