Hello, beautiful soul.
I thank the Universe for bringing you here. It means that our souls need to meet at this point in our journey.
Are you ready to celebrate your gifts and ascend to your highest self? Let’s do it together.
The dark night of the soul
It’s not going to be easy. I, too, had my own episodes of “dark night of the soul”, and while they did not break me, they brought me to a place of helplessness, doubts, and fears.
I though I was “odd”. That I did not fit in. When I saw integrity breaches and called for accountability and reforms, I was described as a mere disruptor (in its negative context): that I was creating chaos. I was also described as “expecting utopia”, as if living a life of integrity is no longer the norm. That good men are not real anymore. That people who expect fairness, truth, honor, respect, and integrity are weirdos.
In the darkness, one can see the Light
Ironically, when they were calling me names, those were also the times that I felt I was at my most empowered. I did not want to be defeated by fear. While there were indeed moments of confusion and fear, in the end, I stood up for truth and integrity. That is who I am. I raised my voice (with a few “warriors” like me)–but, eventually, sadly, I became the only one left in the room. I ended up alone. Everyone decided the fight was not worth it.
It was probably one of the saddest moments in my life.
In a world where money (as attached to fear) is superior to values–even those you considered as friends can eventually walk away. At first, I did not understand it. I felt like a victim. While I was indeed a victim of injustice, it took me a while to realize that what happened was actually a blessing in disguise. The wrongs must still be corrected but now, there is more peace in knowing that I cannot impose my values on others.
Living an honorable life; it’s always a personal choice
And that’s when something inside me “clicked”. One’s awakening is not my business. We can do our best to inspire others but we cannot force anyone to live an honorable life. One will cheat if he wants to cheat. I can try to dissuade him from it but the final decision is entirely his.
But while we cannot impose our values on others, we also have a part in making this world a little bit better. I know that sounds like a cliche. But there is no point in living if we do not try to become instrument for someone’s awakening.
A non-discriminating and non-separate God
We are called to take a part in humanity’s ascension. That begins with embracing our humanity and divinity. There is a loving and non-discriminating God-goddess-divine who is our Spirit’s source. S/he is inside us (or better yet, we are inside him/her as s/he is inside us). I believe in the oneness and goodness of all creations. And in the intangible things that truly matter: love, compassion, hope, kindness, justice, and respect–all of which are possible in a society that still upholds integrity and authenticity.
And so, I continue to walk this path. Even if it is tough. Or lonely. Even if it means I will still be treated as an outcast, or worse, called a weirdo.
Choosing the path less travelled
I no longer mind. The misjudgement is worth it if I know that I am able to help bring up children who will grow up knowing what is right or wrong and live up expecting the best from themselves.
I have great dreams for this country. I want less children on the streets and more in schools. I want better leaders and politicians. Although I personally enjoy working/living abroad and embracing new cultures, I want more jobs for Filipinos here, not elsewhere. I want lesser traffic and cleaner air. I want lesser reliance on fossil fuels and more on renewable energies. I want lesser number of beauty contests but more competitions in the Math and Sciences.
The 3D prepares us for the 5D
We can all try to be a guru or an ascended master but we cannot or should not even try to escape our 3D existence. There are indeed bad leaders and governments. We must not condone them but we also cannot engage in unproductive witch-hunting. Our time is precious. Let us plant trees, minimize consumption, and bring up upright children while they are busy brainwashing people through mainstream media. Eventually, the good ones will outnumber the rotten eggs.
Where we are is where we could help
And so, let’s work together. There is a mission to be fulfilled here on Mother Earth, our beloved Gaia, as we journey through ascension. You have your own mission as I have mine. Even if our paths are not the same, we have the same accountabilities. Are you an educator? Then you are accountable to your students. You cannot teach them good behavior if you yourself are not proud of how you speak or behave.
In the same breathe, I earn my living as an environmental and social development professional. I will not be credible in my mission if I will be the first one to throw plastic bottles away in our beaches.
I have chosen a path that honors Gaia and this is the same path that brings me in union with Spirit and divine consciousness. Each will find his own path–it can be teaching, painting, singing, or healing. Our mission–which allows us to serve the collective–is not a separate act from our divine self. The one who serves in the physical body is just a small part of the same soul-being who lives in different timelines and multiverses.
You are an infinite being. But you are also that beautiful person in the here and now. As I am here, too.
I treasure the gift of life. The ability to be present. I am my own Queen, with just the right sparkles of seriousness and humor–someone who has happily accepted her fate that she is forever banned in the kitchen. (Read: My idea of cooking is boiling rice or eggs. Luckily, I ended up married to a sweet Cebuano who is passionate about cooking! Talk about serendipity and miracles!)
Leadership requires courage
I would probably be your visionary-leader-nurturer type of person. I’m strict with work but “soft” inside, too. Nurturing people is important but when necessary, the practice of tough love is essential, too.
Please don’t expect that an spiritually evolving person is all about love and light only. That is always a misconception. Spirituality teaches us to be tolerant and respectful but let’s not take b.s. from anyone. Journeying the spiritual path is about embracing who we truly are: light and darkness, yin and yang. Labeling actually gives me some discomfort. Spirituality should not be seen as a badge of honor or a label. (But we are humans still caught in the 3D and labeling is a form of convenience. Lol!)
And so, please allow yourself to embrace the whole package: your gifts, your failings, and your promises.
I allow myself to embrace the leader in me. I am likely 70% leader, 30% follower. I love working in teams but I think I’m happier (and more useful!) being on top of any situation. I think this is something that people misunderstand about leaders. We are not “bossy.” We are always open to suggestions, however, our minds had been programmed differently. Especially if time is critical, we are designed to act fast. We will conform and follow directions if it is for the common good. We respect regulations and authorities but that we have enough confidence to speak up.
Being decisive is important if we’re trying to make a difference. Don’t wait for the floods! Let’s build the bridges now. Let’s also stop complaining unnecessarily.
Being the change that we want
Let’s come up with clear solutions rather than rant mindlessly. (Yes, to many people it’s called ranting if we complain against the government in social media–in the middle of a serious pandemic–without offering any concrete solution. We can disagree all we want–it’s our right–but also, there is a basic unwritten rule in mature and intelligent discourses: we must not resort to hostility, ad hominem attack, insults, and name-calling, right?)
This is something we can appreciate from the past, for example, from having brilliant mentors/bosses. Those gurus usually train their staff to avoid going to them with problems. Their staff are trained to analyze problems, and from there, come up with and execute solutions. Leaders are busy. They don’t have time to get down on their knees and complain over problems. They like to hear the solutions.
I must confess though. I used to be a hard-core leftist activist, too. The type who never runs out of complaints against the establishment. Come hell or high water, I will always look for something to complain about. Back then, for me, the establishment is always incompetent.
I embrace that part of me in the past because it indeed taught me a lot in understanding poverty and social inequality. However, I realized later, true activism is anchored on genuine personal transformation. There is no escaping it. This is indeed true: if we want change to happen, we should let it begin in us. In you and me.
Celebrating art and our body’s natural ability to heal
What is life without art? Art, literature, culture, and languages fascinate me. I dabble in photography and painting. I’m learning calligraphy and French language.
I enjoy traveling and had been blessed with the chances to live and work in Bangladesh and Cambodia. I am in awe of the beauty and mystery of this world, the works of talented artisans and authors, and heritage structures and temples.
I believe in energy healing and the body’s natural ability to heal. That is why I had trained in pranic healing and Swedish massage. I am also scheduled to train in Reiki I. Hubby calls me “Dr. Quack-quack” because I can intuitively use crystals, plants/herbs, and music during those rare times that we will have minor health issues.
One time, while traveling through a train in Japan, a co-delegate in a conference had an extreme stomach ache. He was like wanting to cry already. It was not yet near the next station so I intuitively put my hand over his tummy and prayed for him. The next thing we knew, all the pains were gone. Just like magic.
Stepping into our own power
I don’t know what really happened but I knew there is a great and loving power within and that we can always tap into it if we needed healing. But I’m not your miracle worker.
Remember, YOU are YOUR own miracle worker. I can share recipes but you are the chef. You can add your own ingredients and spices, modify the “how to’s”, and adjust to taste. In this divine kitchen, everyone is an artist and you are free to create your own masterpiece: YOUR LIFE!
Time is precious, my beloved. Please don’t waste it complaining about others, about things that you can no longer or cannot yet change. Understand power dynamic and politics but don’t become too embroiled in politicking. Let our government leaders face God and their conscience. They are not the real enemies. We are our own enemies. The society will eventually fix itself if every one does his own fixing within himself first. We all need to be the change that we want.
Live in the NOW. Be present. Be mindful. Attain your highest potential.
I am saying this so you will remember. You are a powerful being; a co-creator. You are from the Divine Source.
All you need to do is wake up and step into your power.